#i am very tired rn so if this doesn't make sense it's not my fault lol

[marvelnatswhore]

Hi!

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Wanda Maximoff x Reader ~hugs, kisses & pet names drabble

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a/n: hii -sorry it's small im too tired but hope you like <3

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an exhausted sigh left your lips as you flopped down on your couch. Finally home, your eyes drifted shut in the comfort of nothing and for a moment you wondered if you could fall asleep right there.

Your moment was soon interrupted as you heard shuffling from your bathroom and the door opening as Wanda called your name. Your eyes opened as you heard her footsteps coming towards you.

"Hi baby-" Wanda said as your gaze met hers, a towel wrapped loosely around her hair and a number of damp strands fell down, brushing her cheeks, you couldn't help smiling when you noticed her wearing your favourite shirt.

"Falling asleep without me?" She whispers, letting the towel around her hair fall to the floor as she leans in to kiss you, a smirk pressed against her soft lips.

You frown a little when she pulls away, already missing the short contact, even without reading your mind, Wanda could tell exactly what you wanted.

"Need a cuddle?" She says, already knowing your response; you hummed in agreement, wrapping your arms around her torso and pulling her onto the couch, against you. Wanda laughed, running her hands through your hair and leaning down to kiss you softly as she settled herself between your legs, facing you with a fond look.

"How was work, love?" She whispered as her hair brushed your cheeks.

"Boring and too long," You muttered, "I missed you."

"Missed you more, honey." Wanda said, kissing you gently as she pulled you closer.

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Every time I get close to being comfortable just saying "I am autistic" without having an official diagnosis, something puts me off or makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong

I've interacted on autistic content - stating that I don't have an official diagnosis - and I've been questioned by people who are autistic in a very standoffish way

And... ig I get it. When there are people who are maybe coopting this label without any real research and just a few autistic stereotypes

But really... how many of those people do we REALLY think there are?

Being perceived as or believed to be autistic is typically not a win in most situations

It's just... jarring

I want to be understood. But I don't want to be doubted. I don't want to be called upon to document the extent of my years of research and all of the traits I possess and ways I experience the world that lead me to believe I'm autistic.

That's why I wanna be able to just say I'm autistic in the first place! Because I'm tired of having to add a bunch of disclaimers which literally just define autism!

Coz that's what the woman who gave me that poor assessment told me to do. "You could just explain that you have ADHD and other difficulties". So you're telling me I have to list all of my specific traits that aren't under the ADHD umbrella. When that is not always possible. Or appropriate.

Or even fair to me as a human being! Like, wtfuck!?

I can tell someone I have ADHD and they'll have a decent idea of the challenges I face or ways my brain works. They don't need to be privy to all the specifics and intricacies.

So why then must I disclose with such specificity all of my (very obviously) autistic traits when simply saying I'm autistic should suffice?

That's not right. Not to me, anyway.

I don't want to do that.

I want to say I'm autistic and get on with my business.

Another issue is I'm an Incredibly honest person. Like... to a fault. I see no need to be dishonest. And I am unbearably uncomfortable with missing out key pieces of information that are relevant to the circumstance.

So, even tho I trust my research, even tho I was correct in assessing my own adhd (which I was then diagnosed with), even tho I have mulled over this for years and have a mountain of evidence to suggest that, yes, I am very clearly autistic, and even tho I relate to autistic people more than any other (save for ADHDers - AuDHD peeps are like looking in the mirror!)... even tho all of this is true, I still can't bring myself to just say "I am autistic"

Not without adding the disclaimer: "I'm not diagnosed but I've done so much research and it makes so much sense and I've been looking into it for years and I was right about my ADHD" - it's EXHAUSTING

I don't want to have to do all that

But... uurrrrgggghhhhhhh

I found a woman with specialty in diagnosing autism in women. She uses a wider more comprehensive set of questionnaires (which I did on her site and wowow), she was diagnosed as an adult, and she offers assessment which doesn't hinge entirely on conversational relay, AND she understands masking and such.

It's £750 for an assessment. Money I don't have rn and won't have to spare for a while

And someone close to me said, "What do you get out of it tho?" And I said "a diagnosis" and they said "yeah, what else?" And it made me feel like it's not worth it, or valid. I know, realistically, they were looking to understand why it was something that I should do for myself, not to say that it's not, but to understand why it is. But I clammed up because they are VERY neurotypical and I, in that moment anyway, didn't want to delve into the complexity or try to make it understandable.

Sigh.

One day I will do it tho, when I can afford to. Because my brain needs confirmation from an ADEQUATE assessment. Because I don't want to use a million and one disclaimers. Coz I don't wanna feel like an imposter for the rest of my life.

[greywindys]

The cover is especially weird to me. Idk if you listened to the Jamie interview in the art book podcast but he mentioned that he finds drawing promo art boring because he doesn’t get to be experimental (which has been very evident as of late), and he has to draw four characters standing and looking at the camera - but he says this also applies to album covers, which at the time I thought was odd, and now makes sense in hindsight. So my question is - is the lack of experimentation a self-inflicted “rule” or something else? Why does he say that when basically no other album cover follows the “four characters standing and looking at the camera” rule?

It feels like every interview with Jamie just raises more questions.

Sorry, this has taken me a while. I haven't had a lot of time to sit down and write out thoughts. I didn't listen to Jamie's podcast interview, but I read summaries and am hopeful that's given me enough of an understanding. I remember reading that he thought promo art was boring. Why does the album look that way? Your guess is as good as mine (aka idk).

They seem to be contradicting themselves a lot. Like, Damon mentioned tension in the live band, yet they keep touring. Jamie's tired of promo art (and possibly of drawing Gorillaz in general), but he's also "more inspired than he's ever been." They leave their last label for more freedom, but also every bad decision or point of disorganization is management's fault, not theirs (this is more of a fan argument thing though) and management is 100% in control of everything.

Honestly, I don't know what the goal is anymore. Circa P5, my understanding was that they had to make more brand deals to fund their project. I could understand and mostly accept that (except when they try to make fun of other artists for doing the same thing). But they've had the brand deals, and phases still end out of nowhere, there's no movie, no TV show, overpriced merch that doesn't always get delivered, seemingly no communication between the writers and Jamon and whoever is running the social media. They are seemingly dissatisfied with the state of things. Is there an end goal? Someone might say "so they can spread their message!!" (whatever that it), or "to express themselves, for fun," but I know of a lot of artists who haven't maintained their mainstream popularity or brand deals, but continue to make music and tour. If it was solely about the love of music and creative expression, they could probably do some version of that without all the brand stuff and social media push. So many bands who have established themselves have more freedom to do this....perhaps, maybe, they haven't established themselves into the legendary music act category. But obvi, a lot of people would argue against me on that too (I don't have a strong opinion either way, personally).

All of this is to say that it's hard for me to assess anything with them rn because I have no idea what they want or what they're trying to do anymore. Idk, they could go make a brand deal with McDonald's or Disney for all I care, just give Murdoc some new and engaging material, Ed.

[159potterhead]

(this is answer to the previous ask. It's gonna be long. I'll try to give you the insight)

Yeah. I mean apart from me there's also this one other guy he's also regular victim like me coz he also broke a rule but he gets bullied by different seniors not the Michael guy gang. And it's not particularly about the gang or the group coz all those seniors are friends with each other so anyone can bully any junior. This guy has a job for calling me when those seniors ask to see me and this guy makes a run to the cafe coz those seniors wants to eat something. He's always running around here and there. I feel bad for him.

There are more than 200 peeps I guess. They had human ethics class when they called me but that time professor wasn't taking their lecture so most of them left but then too there were too many people in there. Yk I told you I'm in Biotech so like this we have all kind of subjects for major like physics, chemistry, maths, statistics, life science and many more and for all these branches we have a common subject called Human ethics which is compulsory for every one. So all of the branches together sit in one big classroom for this subject.

Tbh, I really don't know what that guy wants, I thought maybe I'll avoid him so I won't get in trouble but it happened opposite coz he got seriously pissed after that. That was the most embarrassing day of my life, I remember everything, I got very close to crying. And he never really talks to me but he called me in their class and was like, why are you avoiding me? And I can't say that to his face, so, I said, 'I was not.' And then he listed a few palce where I tried to avoid him and I had no answer to that, it's a long story but he bought that list of slangs that I once wrote and he told me to read the whole list (it has around 70 curse words half which I had to make up on my own. Initially it 50 but afterwards they increased it. I'll get to it later) He told me I had to yell those words until the person sitting on the last bench can hear me. It was brutal. And he was standing right on my head saying, 'I can't hear you,' I would have killed him that day. I got very close to crying. I only made it till 4-5 words. I skipped few days after that day it was the worst thing ever that's how everyone in his year got to know about me.

Yes! I tried to avoid him many times. If I saw him coming I used to changed my path and I think he noticed coz I wasn't subtle at all. And idk what's up with him coz he started playing hide and seek, if he noticed me changing direction or going the long way to avoid him he just used to take the short route and get there before me just to freak me out. And that guy is not even in my line of vision he's way taller than me and I freaked out every time when he used to come in front of me suddenly out of nowhere. I looked okay not a big deal from outside but from inside I always went in emergency mode, my hands used to get cold. Sue me, I have anxiety I can't help it and if someone will act like this I will feel a little afraid or intimidated yk. And after that task of reading the list out loud he stopped. So that was relief. I often think does these people don't have humanity or what. If I was a guy I would never do this to a girl. And yk this bullying part is also a reason why I'm done with guys. Don't be sorry, it's okay I had my fun in school, so I was kinda prepared for this.

I think you didn't get it. It's the weird universal rule going on from ages, we have to give respect to every senior even if they are from other branch. The rules are not made up by any college authority. It's just something that is going on among students, professors doesn't know a thing about it. There are many rules. We have two cafes over here and one of them is strictly reserved for seniors, a junior person cannot step a foot over there.

Yesss! You get me! That's why I was looking. I don't think it's peer pressure. I think that he thinks I don't respect him and I broke the rule. I think he got more confident after his friends knew. And I think his friends told people of his class that's why they all knew my name.

All my friends and classmates already knows about it. They can't do anything coz those people are their seniors too, and we are supposed to do as they say. One of my tired tried to help me coz she knew someone in the senior batch and that person talked to that Michael guy about me and guess what? They just doubled the slangs. And I had to prove my innocence and I bargained but then too I ended up writing 70. So there's that.

(it’s alright, write ten pages even if you’ve got to)

it’s all cause of those stupid rules!!😡 oh my, poor kid:(( y’all have feet, go and get your own food from the cafeteria! i’m starting to feel bad for him too, he’s just trying to get along with his college years, let him be!!

ohh, so you get stuck in the same hall for a whole lecture? that’s just nice🤦🏻‍♀️

yeah that makes absolutely no sense btw🤨?? baby noo😭 I wish I had been there for you!! umm we have nothing between us, I can avoid you if I want to?? jeez I wanna punch this dude so bad rn. ok srsly what is up with that list omg. YOURE JOKING????? HE MADE YOU DO THAT??? IS HE INSANE OR INSANE??!!? im so so so sorry!!!! that just sounds like an awful way to get introduced to the rest of the school, plus I can’t imagine the toll it had on you!!😭😭

???? what a creep??? I mean that’d be fine if it was a friend, but what the hell does he want?? you have a right to be intimidated, and it’s not your fault you’ve got anxiety, can’t he get it?!! either he finally saw that his actions are that of the devil and felt sorry for you and stopped, which I doubt very much. or someone in that class saw and made him stop afterwards. he shouldn’t be doing this to anyone, regardless!! this is your actual villain origin story against guys, and honestly, I can very clearly see why now. even though, this doesn’t mean that you deserved an ounce of it!

how is that supposed to be any better?? and fine I can show respect, but to the point of calling them maam and sir, is this a school or military grounds? yeah okay that reserved spot thing is passable.

ah okay... a shitty dude followed by shitty friends... how respectful.

honestly thank god I don’t attend your college, no offense. under whose authority am I to blindly do as they say, I don’t get it, I really don’t! oh that’s just great😫 props to them for talking to him though. that just sucks, I am incredibly sorry! :(((

🎶honey I'll be your shelter, I'll be the one to take you through the night. whenever you need shelter, I'll make everything alright, make everything alright🎶💕